Ok, so the title is technically a bit of a lie:
- I didn’t really start this blog right after Rosh Hashanah (Jewish New Year) of last year. I actually created this blog 2+ years ago, wrote 1 post, didn’t like it, deleted that post, and then didn’t touch the blog again until just after Rosh Hashanah of last year when I wrote my “first” post.
- It isn’t Rosh Hashanah yet. I’m deliberately posting this early in hopes that it will get me off WordPress enough to actually focus on the many things I am supposed to be doing before Rosh Hashanah.
Seriously, I wrote this post complaining about all the things I would need to do in August, gave myself the gift of an irresponsible, impulsive, selfish, expensive, last-minute vacation to help reward me for accomplishing things, and then the only thing I accomplished was going on vacation. Vacation was great, by the way. I won’t post dates, location, or photos for privacy reasons, but it was great.
Anyway, I digress. It’s hard to write a “one year of real blogging” reflection post without falling into cliché, but I’ll try.
Thoughts On ~1 Year Of Active Blogging
An Audience Is A Good Motivator For Writing Regularly
Actually, that shouldn’t have been a surprise. COVID taught me that I am the kind of extreme extrovert who can’t be motivated to maintain baseline minimal hygiene and grooming habits without the possibility of an audience of sorts – the possibility of seeing anyone in person. I also don’t dance in my living room or sing in the shower; I prefer doing those activities in clubs or karaoke bars where there is a large audience in front of whom I can make a fool out of myself. So this is not all that surprising.
Blogging Is Time-Consuming
Actually, I knew this already too. Once upon a time, I had a short-lived political blog. That alone is worthy of a blog post at some point, but long story short, one reason why I quit was the sheer time-suck. But I thought that was unique to political-blogging. It turns out that political blogging is a whole other category of time-consuming (I mean, if you want to do it well – if you just want to rant, it’s nothing), non-political-blogging is still time-consuming.
I Did Not Expect To Write This Much Poetry Here
My original intent was not to publish any poetry at all on this blog. Not that I have real aspirations for my poetry, but I wanted to leave open the option of submission to publications that will only accept previously unpublished work. But then there were prompts I’d feel compelled to respond to, and now I have a poetry section of this blog, even though my About page says I don’t believe in separating poetry from the rest of life. I probably need to re-think this.
It’s Hard To Allow Yourself To Be Dislikeable, Even On Your Blog
It’s probably presumptuous to assume that this blog makes me likeable, or rather, that I come across as likeable to someone reading this blog. But I can say that I have unpublished drafts of content that causes me to come across as far less likeable / far more dislikeable, that I haven’t managed to publish yet (or possibly ever).
That said, there’s still way more honesty coming through here vs. in person life. I do think a big part of that is all of you lovely readers who make sharing the less likeable things less scary.
Thank you, dear readers. It is certainly nicer to write with your company than without it.
I hope though that this has not been an entirely selfless exercise on your part. I hope you’ve been enjoying the content, less because I need my ego stroked or because I am afraid of negative/dissenting comments (see aforementioned political-blogging experience), and more because I would hate for you to spend your time reading my blog if you don’t like it.
Seriously, I stopped hate-reading a website that I was previously obsessed with hate-reading. I want to tell you that it was a life-changing decision, but, seeing as I am still the queen of astoundingly poor time-management who managed to develop other bad online habits instead, “life-changing” may be too strong an adjective.
I digress. Actually, I don’t think you are hate-readers. I think you are friends. I think we are friends, in a way. So thank you, dear friends. I did not really expect to make and find friends here, especially with the limits of anonymous blogging. I had no experience with making friends in online communities, or even with meeting people online via online dating. But here we are, sharing details of our lives, and leaving truly kind, thoughtful comments, and having conversations.
It’s a little early, but as Rosh Hashanah is coming, I wish you a wonderful, sweet, healthy, happy, healthy, fulfilling new year!
(Also, if you see me posting between now and Rosh Hashanah, please yell at me to get off WordPress!)